Today is my rest day but I decided to stay at home and watch Netflix or play video games instead of going out.
I find it difficult to interact with people sometimes. I since I was a kid that I was not the most social person in the world.
I actually thought I am passed that by now but it turns out I’m still the same.
For me, interacting with people and socializing with them takes a lot out of me. I feel so drained emotionally whenever I socialize with people.
To be honest, people scares me most of the time.
I don’t know why I am like this. I have no idea why I feel this way but it’s something that I’ve had since I was a kid.
Sometimes I envy people who likes to party a lot and actually have fun.
The only crowded places that I went to when I was younger was concerts. And the only reason I was able to go to concerts because in that kind of event, you drown yourself to the music. You ignore everyone else and it’s just you and the music that you’re listening to, in an open space.
I think the people I know personally would be surprised if they read this post. But socializing really takes a lot of energy from me.
That’s why most of the time I am mentally and emotionally drained.
And I would rather go home and have some alone time to recharge myself instead of wasting more energy.
I know this might sound bad and people will disagree because they wouldn’t understand how people like me feels.
But you’re someone who feels the same way as I do. Please remember, you are not alone kid. There’s a lot of us out there.
I mean. I’m a manager and as a manager, I interact and socialize with people. Can you imagine how exhausting that is for me?
Anyway, if you’re a lost soul, let me know what you think but skating something in the comments section.